Thursday was the first day of senior year. It was hot as anything cause my good old Catholic school doesn't have air conditioning. It sort of sucked more then I had previously expected. It's not as fun as it was the last 3 years. I think that at the begininning of every year though...I hope I can snap out of it and just get used to it. I've also been extrememly tired. I'm not used to getting up so early.

I keep rotating between being completly ready for this year to be over. To go to college. To never have to take a morning class again. Then I'll get all panicked and remember how much I love my school, and my friends and guard. (Color guard is the thing I do. For those ou you who don't know its the girls in the marching band with the spandx  uniforms and flags, sabres, and rifles. It sounds gay but it's my life and I love it.) I also feel like practice is sucking the life out of me. Being at school for seven hours for classes and then 3 hours for practice three days of the week is killing me. I also don't know how my mom is going to live by herself. I'm scared she'll get too lonely.

Other then school, life hasn't been too sucky. I know I should start exercising and eating better but I can't. I just don't know why. I can't find enough motivation. I keep wishing that I was skinny like most of my friends but then I just think but I like to be lazy. There's no way I'm going to be able to lose weight and keep it off anyway. I don't know but today I got really excited for Christmas. I can't wait for it to be here.  My friend's surprise party is next weekend. That should be really fun...if she hasn't figured it out yet.

Anyway, I guess that's all that's really going on right now. more later, I suppose.